Going on Sec 4

I really think Sec 4 will be much, much busier than Sec 3. Not to mention its our final year in Secondary school, but I have got two CCAs to think about, plus AQ training thrice a week, and the fact that every single saturday until christmas, I have something on.

In other words, very, very, busy.

RInspire is really stressful, because I don't really know what to do. Hence I just worry about it. Rather stupid, I know. -.- And it's especially irritating when my predecessor refuses to answer my SMS. Anyway.

BB is well, busy, but less stressful, cos I know what to do, and I think I'm doing a good job.

Two things have been particularly enjoyable this holiday.

First, it's basketball and cards with my CCA mates. My basketball's definitely improved, though I'd say I'm still pretty lousy. But I feel that I've grown closer to my batch in three months - since taking over, than in three years. Maybe.

Second, it's fanfiction. Just that now its Final Fantasy VII fanfiction. Instead of Star Wars. And I'd point out an interesting fact. Girls do write better than boys. At least in terms of fanfic authors. I'll reserve my comments about profic.

So. Back to my fic.

Gah.

Sigh.

It's hard to stay on the straight and narrow.


God help me.



P.S. This holiday is so busy that it's as if I have O's to prepare for. -.-

Concentrate

Just great.

2 days more and I'm already slacking around.


Concentrate.

15 Days more

15 Days more to the end of EOYs.

And I'm feeling really bored.

Have to persevere.

Which is difficult.

Which is why they shouldn't spread out the EOYs so much.



Anyway, I've nothing to blog about.

48 Years

The wait is over! Grats to the Singaporean Women's Table Tennis team for making it to the finals of the Women's Team event in Beijing 08, getting us our first medal in 48 years! =D All the best for Sunday, even though we need a miracle to beat China. I'll put my math revision on hold to watch.

Ha.

Anyway, tomorrow, I plan to study math in the afternoon, and geography in the night.

And whatever time is left, prepare for the debates assessment on Monday.

What a week this week will be. Three CCTs, one oral assessment, and a class test. In FOUR DAYS. Along with the temptation of watching the Olympics.

Dang.

Anyway, I'm feeling positively happy now.

Olympics

On a side note, I'll be able to start running again by mid Sept! Yay. Instead of end Sept. At least, its an improvement.

And why do the Olympics have to clash with CCT week? I'll be busy watching. Instead of studying.

Like today.

I feel torn between supporting Singapore and studying for my YingYongWen test.

Anyway.

Tomorrow, we'll see if Singapore beats Netherlands in table tennis. They should. They better. They're foreign talent. 0.o

Back to geshi and other stuff

Fractured

My hopes of a quick recovery is fractured.

Literally.

Apparently, the injury was a fracture plus ligament tear.

So now it's three months out

Not two.

Really pissed.

And the doc says maybe even up to six months.

What the heck.

And ankle fractures are really quite dangerous.

Sleepy Eyes and Fuzzy Minds

Haven't been sleeping too well these few nights. Because I'll have these regular fits of sneezing that interrupts my sleep. Coughing too. No wonder I'm feeling so tired. Plus the fact that I don't really feel motivated to do work. So I have to resist the temptation of sleeping in the afternoon.

Anyway, yesterday I fell asleep accidentally. Really. I was just so tired that I slept for about three hours. Then, after waking up and taking dinner, I read my email to see that we have a Chinese CCT next Monday.

So I feel rather depressed, knowing that it's quite probable that I won't do well.

Even fail.

Again.

But well, I'll study the best I can.

So I'm studying Chinese now.

Eeks. What a mugger I am - for chinese. If I didn't mug, I'd get below 30. Even 20%. So don't blame me. I'm mugging to pass, not mugging to get a 4.0

So. Back to chinese. Hope I don't fall asleep again.

Post APCG

Don't feel like going to school tomorrow, because I don't feel like waking up early! Haha.

Anyway. I feel rather happy, because we played three hours of guitar at Expo before service. Fun, but I really wish we had a real electric rather than plucking out the electric parts on an acoustic guitar.

The sermon today was really fast. The speaker machine-gunned his points at us so fast that I didn't manage to catch all of them. But it was applicable, in some parts, as my mum pointed out to me during dinner.

And I've been overeating this week. I mean, staying at home is just eat, sit around, and sleep. Don't even go out that much cos my mum doesn't allow me to. Not to mention the large family gathering on Saturday. My uncle and aunt came back from Hong Kong for a visit, so well, it called for a family feast.

So right now, I'm back to my normal weight.

Sigh.

After losing all those pounds during gastric flu.

But that way's cheating, I guess.

Anyway, off to bathe. And sleep.

Wish tomorrow was the start of APCG week. I could use the sleep. and the slack time. haha.

Why do I feel like there's nothing to do?

I'm really, really, bored.

I mean, my parents don't allow me to go out unless they or my grandpa can fetch me. They're extremely sure that the chance of me getting reinjured when I take public transport is really high. So, therefore, I can't go to Judo finals. I can't go to my friend's house. And by a stroke of luck, my dad's free to fetch me to and fro for CIP on friday.

Really frustrating. I wish that I could just stand on my own two feet and take public transport.

Probably, my parents will only let me take public transport when I'm no longer in the brace.

Retarded, isn't it. I know they mean well, but I feel they're being far too overprotective.

Sigh.

So I'm stuck at home, with not much to entertain myself with.

Really, really boring.

Wish I'd get well soon.

E-Learning

My ankle's better. Thank God. But I really feel jealous when I watch all my classmates have fun on the astro playing hockey/floorball. But then I feel sorta happy when I get to not do drill.

Of course, I must also thank all those who have helped/offered to help me. Excluding those that want to 'help' me down the lift. -.-

Next week, I have E-learning. With four academic periods tomorow, I am sure that the amount of homework I have for next week will double.

Sighz...

Good thing I've finished my ERP.

Anyway, I hope that I am able to cope well with my work. I must at least equal my GPA last year. I mean, I look at my Philosophy results, and I feel extremely pissed. Philo is a subject that is supposed to pull your marks up. But conversely, it is pulling my marks down.

Frustrating.

I must take philo more seriously from now on.

Fire

I'm pissed. Really, really pissed.

First of all, my ankle is so bloody inconvenient. And I have two heavy files to carry around in and to school tomorrow.

Second, tomorrow's math test. I'm stressed. I practiced hard. But I can't stuff any more into my overflowing head.

Third, there's chemistry tomorrow. Chem's an absolute torture as I know absolutely nothing about the current topic. Cause the teacher can't teach for nuts. No offense, but that's the way I think about it. He just rushes through everything, and doesn't answer our questions.

Fourth, scrabble competition. It's a good thing I've got this ankle injury and have an excuse not to go. Because I hate playing scrabble, and am absolutely horrible at it.

Fifth, Macbeth play. As I don't know where to go and how to go there, and need people to fetch me as I don't have the strength to go blunder my way around the place, I feel like an absolute burden to my family. I'm like so helpless.

Sixth, my entire Saturday is gone, via Singspiration and tuition.

Finally, tomorrow's full of academic periods.

Can't I have this slacker mentality and turn off for a while. I can't, and desperately trying to listen and learn takes all the energy out of me.

God, I really need your help.

火真的很大！

1 month

well. I have a ligament tear in my ankle.

Great. And it takes about 1 month to heal.

So now I've to wear the ankle guard, and walk with the aid of crutches.

At the very least, I've to thank God that it wasn't a fracture. Otherwise things would be more complicated. For sure, the treatment would cost even more.

Let's just say the amount we paid was nearing 1k.

Sian right.

Anyway, I really hope that I'll be able to get well soon. And learn to be independent and mobile on this pair of crutches.

Great.. just great

I've sprained my ankle. At best.

At worst, I've fractured it. It's going to be such a hassle to move around.

Must learn to appreciate that you have four sound healthy limbs.

More importantly, must learn to be more careful. Haven't had such a serious injury in six years.

Sian.

Anyway, on the bright side, I don't need to go to school. But I'd rather go to school than have a fractured ankle.

Right now, I'm waiting for my parents to bring me to go for an x-ray.

Just hope the results aren't too bad.

School ftw!

Back to school.

It has been a okayish holiday. Nothing really outstanding.

But it hasn't been too bad either.

I think the only thing that I've left to do is Geog Project.

I think. Of course I may be wrong, and then I'll have to rush whatever that I've forgotten to do.

Cell yesterday! Craig, Dan and me played the guitar for worship. I was kinda tired as I was going to cell on the back of a 3-day Day Camp in school. But the word session was quite uneventful. Nothing was said that really struck me as important or critical. Critical is the important critical. Not the disagreeable critical. If you were there, you'd understand the last two sentences.

Anyway, one more weekend. I'll try to make the best of it.

Happy Birthday!

I'd like to thank all those who wished me Happy Birthday today. You really made my day! =) Thanks so much.

I don't think I should list them. Cos I can even count them on my fingers. But thanks to all those that remembered.

And those that didn't, I hope you remember next year!

Today went shopping with parents. Bought a new belt! =D

Anyway, going to watch Prince Caspian later after math tuition.

As of now, I think there's only a few things left to do! Math Project, Geog Project, and the Social Advocacy Presentation. I think that I've finished the rest.

Think.

Probably won't even get the chance to touch my homework next week.

First Week

Tomorrow's the start of the first week. And what a week it's going to be.

Monday, I give in to temptation and go to Kuss's house for a day of fun. Then I rush back in the night to do my homework. Tuesday, I'm down for fireman's course. Which is somewhere in Yishun. I'm not too sure where exactly. Crapola. Plus, Thursday I need to go to school, and then to TCT in the night for choir practice. More Crapola. And the whole load of projects that's sitting on my head at the moment.

Sighzzz...

I'm really tired because of sneezing. Yes, sneezing. You can ask my cell group. -.- I sneezed all the way from simei at about 1pm, all the way home at around past 6. Used up three packs of tissue paper. At least my nose has stopped running. But it's now all red and irritated. My coughs much worse, due to the backflow of the immense amount of mucus that my nose has produced. Damn.

So I'm going to sleep now.

And I have to POLISH tomorrow. What's their problem! My boots are SPOILT! So how? I really dunno.

Hm.

Last day of school of the first semester.

Looking back, I can't say I've done really badly, but I can really say that I haven't done well. I mean, I somehow work my way to a 3.6 for math and lose it because of one CCT. Then for most of my other subjects, I've been slacking off. Resulting in a lousy 3.2 GPA. I know I can do better. I'll try again next term.

My 'holiday' is jam packed with activities. Camps. Church camps. Projects. A real heap load of. Every subject, except bio, for that matter, has a project.

Ridiculous, isn't it.

I guess I've been unknowingly irritating the hell out of people this term. I'm sorry if I did, and if I really offended you, then please tell me. I'd appreciate that. In terms of relationships, I think I'm a big epic phail this term. I think, at least. Haven't made any new friendships. A few good things though. But far more bad stuff.

I've done really badly in my spiritual side of things. Been rather burned out. Got to get back on track.

And I've got to manage my time. Today I took a really long afternoon nap.

Really, really long.

A wasted 6 hours of my time.

Maybe not all that wasted, but I feel I should be doing something more productive.

I'm going to eat dinner now.

Bye.

What a waste

My title's keep starting with what.

Apparently, I just wasted my whole afternoon yesterday. Doing the Literature group essay that was cancelled.

And no one bothered to tell me until I sent them half the essay. Guess its not their fault. It's my fault for working ahead of time.

Anyway. Just wasted away the entire evening watching a silly soap drama. If it's a soap opera, why waste my time watching it? But I like soap operas. Sort of. That's why I like Star Wars. And now it extends to some of those Chinese serials that were supposed to help me improve my chinese. Let's hope I don't get too addicted.

At least I don't think so.

Back to SS essay.

I really don't feel like going to school. 5 academic periods.

At least Pei Yi makes me laugh.

And poor Shao's really, really stressed.

Sorry. =((

And why do I keep finding up theme songs?

What's left

Okay... I started to type, and I got interrupted by a big flying cockroach. At least my parents got it. After a rather long and protracted battle. -.- Haha. I don't like cockroaches. I'm scared of em.

Ah well.

I have done SOME of my homework. But I still have

1) Lit group Essay
2) Social Advocacy
3) Chinese Hols Homework
4) Math Revision
5) SS Prj

I don't care, I'm leaving the commentary as it is.

Humph.

And I'm sick. So I missed the east coast park cycling today.

=(( At least I got a new guitar.

And the funny thing is, I'm helping my bro write a compo. Anyway, good night

Homework Check

Let's see....

I have...

1) a MPP bill to re-write, since I lost my thumbdrive. (Due on Wed)
2) A Lit Individual Essay (Due on Wed)
3) A Lit Group Essay (Due on Wed)
4) SS Project (not so impt right now)
5) English Commentaries (almost done)
6) Math Revision (at least I finished that assignment)
7) Social Advocacy Project (Due on Fri)
8) English Filing (Due really soon)

And a whole day at open house wasted tomorrow.

The amount of homework I have. And it's already week ten.

And I left my lit file in school. How the hell am I gonna do the essays?

And how the hell will I find time - except, tomorrow night, and sunday morning.

Damn it.

All my free time.

You're not going to make me miss my 9 o'clock show on Monday.

I hope

Through It All

I've fallen in love with this song AGAIN.

anyway.

Let's just spam post. haha

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
Im carried in everlasting arms
Youll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, hallelujah

Lit Notes

I should be in bed by now. But because of some really bad choices, I'm now reading my lit notes. Should've managed my time better. Pissed cos I've to stay back until 7 in school tomorrow. When I've got my MPP bill to write. Sighs epically. Anyway.

PBQ. I'm really bad at memorizing quotes, so I expect not to do very well tomorrow.

Anyway. Let's not waste so much time anymore shall we.

Back to reading.

-.-

It's really boring.

Esp. when I want to play my guitar.

Sitting in the gutter

Honestly. I'm feeling really crappy right now. Crappy not as in random, but crappy in sort of dejected? I mean, I think that I'm not going to get any rest. I can't stand the silly social advocacy project that we're doing. And I can't stand the fact that I've to go read Macbeth again. I mean, sorry Shakespeare, but i think the play sucks to read. Maybe it's really nice when it's all acted out, but reading it is really crap.

Not to mention MPP. Reading bills puts me to sleep. But I've to do it anyway. So I just take much much longer than usual. And CCAs really boring too.

Sigh.

Today, at least, was not too bad. Mum was happy with the card I got her. And the sermon wasn't too bad. It just seems like praise songs are getting more and more less, shall I say powerful, nowadays.

Which is bad.

Plus, despite all that Pastor Khong's been saying this few weeks about obedience and all, I still can't seem to get myself right. So I'm frustrated with myself too. And of course, the people that don't turn up for church or come late. Anyway. Forget that last sentence.

But now I've got to go do the Social Advocacy project.

=(

It's over.

Well. It's over. I've gotten a handphone, and my wallet back. But it's really stupid. How the hell can my phone just end up so far away? It was found at the other end of Singapore, and I spent a good afternoon going there and back to claim my student pass. What a waste of my time. -.- At least I don't have to make a new card and waste thirty bucks. Look on the bright side, huh?

The last of the Term 2 CCTs are over. But there are still tests and projects and compositions due. Sighz. It seems that even after our 'MYE's which aren't really MYEs at all, we still have as much work. If not more. Four deadlines are coming up. Big project deadlines.

Not to mention class test. Philo, SS and Lit.

What's their problem? And I screwed up my math big time. At least Geog results were far better than expected. =))

Thank God. Nvr expected to get a 4.0 for geog. Whew.

Off to bed now.

Nitez.

The new channel 8 show is going to be a heck of a ride.

Darn it.

CCTs? What else?

Okay. It's been a whole month since I last posted. Wow. Anyway, its the 101st post. Nice number, huh? I've been kinda busy with work and other stuff. I feel kinda weird. I mean, all I have to do is revision. But it's a hell lot of stuff to memorize. Biology. And I'm really thinking how on earth can I pull my lit marks up. As for my projects, I've finished the parts that I'm supposed to do.

Supposed to do.

I'll expect that I'll have more to do tonight.

Anyway. Kinda out of sorts these few days. Lost to 3T by a stupid goal that should have never gone in. And I wasn't even playing.

Forget it.

Can't wait for the holidays.

At least I'll get to play Daniel's acoustic guitar tomorrow.

Tests

I didn't do very well for Chinese, SS, and Philo. Like, just pass? 50-something. that really, really isn't very good.

Stating the obvious. For chinese, do more, read more, listen more. At least I've got a plan.

But for SS and philo?

SS, the teacher's overly strict. At least most of us think that way. Who ever heard of someone first choosing the marks before fitting them into the rubrics? I mean, then what are rubrics for?

Anyway.

I'm frustrated, basically, because I didn't do as well as I'd hoped for Lit. It doesn't even come close to my English results. Guess I'm more english than lit.

Forget it.

I've got CCTs to study for next week.

=((

Hives

I've got hives AGAIN.

Now, its more serious. Just hope its because of a allergy that I'll be able to pin down and not some dangerous disease or disorder. Not hope. Pray. Yeah.

So therefore, I'm confined to not doing physical activity. No sweating.

Really sucks.

I'm going to miss 4 hours of CIP, and I'll have to do it during Dec or Nov with Sharity Gift Box.

I'm so unhappy.

=((

What's wrong with me?

I don't quite get what's wrong with me. I've been really tired recently, and haven't done much except slack. Today we celebrated my grandpa's birthday. Went to a seafood restaurant. I learnt one thing today from dinner. I'm really bad at eating crab. I mean, I pick up the leg. Then I try to pluck out the meat. I can't. Or at least, its really inefficient that way. So I attempt to break it open. After a long, long struggle, I get some of that sweet-tasting stuff down my throat. Not very worth it, it seems to me. I just don't like seafood, maybe. I'd rather eat the yam ring around the scallop than the scallop itself. -.-

I heard that they want to postpone the inter-class league to during the hols. That's really crazy. They should continue. After all, if the Sec 4s can do it, so can we. Anyway, we're 6 points and joint second. 3 games, 2 wins, 1 loss. We got owned badly by 3A. I could've probably blocked one shot, but anyway, what's done is done. Sigh.

Continuing on. Homework.

Really sucks. I seriously don't feel like doing my Math Revision for the TA next week. But I have to.

I don't want to do anything but slack and sleep. Maybe if I'd bothered to argue to go down for the Inter UG soccer match, BB wouldn't have got owned 5-0. Maybe.

I'm really out of sorts.

Good nite. And I hope I get myself back together tomorrow.

Tired.

I'm physically tired. Really.

All the Inter-Class soccer, even though I haven't run much, I've still been out all day.

And I haven't even done half my homework.

Tomorrow's going to be one mugging day.

Sigh.

Lead me to the cross, where Your love poured out

Bring me to my knees, Lord I lay me down

Rid me of myself, I belong to You

Lead me to the cross.

Beautiful song.

Anyway.

I'm off to sleep.

=))

Staff Training

I haven't finished my homework, and I'm still racing to be fit so I can play in game tomorrow. Most probably not. We'll still lose anyway. ._. No faith. Haha

Anyway, It's been a good sanctification week. I sure learned a lot, but I really hope I can translate all that head knowledge into heart knowledge. Cos all that I've been able to put into heart knowledge really isn't much. So I have to work on that.

I'm tired. Damn

Didn't even go to school today, but my cough's racking me. Really unfit for soccer.

Sighz.

Homework. Bye!

E-Learning

Wow. A immense amount of e-learning work. What's the prob?

Don't they know we've got CCA? We've got other stuff on?

Sigh. Now I've fallen sick too. Flu and all.

Sigh.

Couldn't even do go for Sanctification week yesterday.

Sighzzz...

Hives

Hives. Just what I need. At least I get to pon school for a few days.

Apparently, its so serious that I need to get a jab.

Wow.

I wonder how I got it. Never had it before.

At least, while at home, I finished my CRP. =))

Holidays... or not.

So the holidays have come to an end. Finally. Well, I can't say that I've had a good break over the holidays, because I haven't. I mean, I had a four day camp, plus all that homework to cope with. It's a bit short, the march holidays. Looking forwards to the longer June hols. At least I should have a better break there.

Anyway, sanctification week's coming! Meaning that we have a great weekend to look forward to. Hope we get good attendance for our cell during this event. People like James and Weibin haven't been showing for some time. At least since our duty ended in January. Come back guys. I could say that you are missed. Somewhat, at least.

Okay, I've got my CRP left. King Lear is really tragic. It ends with almost everyone dying. Just left dead. But I've got to pull up my socks in regards to my homework and revision. Can't afford to slack off.

I feel that I'm getting a bit back on track in terms of God and my walk with Him. Sure, I was feeling really off yesterday, but today, I kinda sorted things out a bit.

A bit.

Lots more to go.

So anyway, I gotta wake up early tomorrow, and it's getting late.

Off to shower. Bye!

March Camp

Okay, so I'm back. What a camp it has been. As Sec 3s we have so many more responsibilities, so many more things that we have to take care of. We're expected to lead our squads, maintain discipline levels, among many other things. So, I'm really tired, but as Kieran said, the Sec 4s are even more tired. I don't quite look forward to next year as a Sec 4 in BB, now that I think about it.

Anyway, I'm going down for the prayer meeting later tonight at TC. Then tomorrow I might go to Shao Tong's house. I'm going to be really shacked.

Good thing I've finished most of my holiday homework.

Split

In school life, everything is going pretty much very well. But in my spiritual life. Not quite. And March Camp's coming up.

I feel quite horrible spiritually. Haven't been spending enough time with God, too many distractions. Although I'm reading the psalms still, I find that I don't enjoy it as much. I really, really have to get back on track. I can't keep on like this. I'll most definitely slip further away if I keep this up.

On the other hand, even though I haven't been good to God, He's been really good to me. So far, the previous two CCT results returned have been really, really good. And I really want to thank God for helping me to achieve such good results. English and Bio above 85. =))

Let's get our act back together.

Results

Okay. I got 21.5/30 for my A-maths test. Expected, but I'm really quite happy about this result! =D And today's maths TA wasn't all that hard. Should be able to pass, albeit not with flying colours. Right now, I floundering in a morass of projects. Just finished the English Commentaries Blog, and that took me lots of effort before I finally decided to write about an article concerning our islandwide manhunt. But there's still ERP, CRP and MPP breathing down my neck. Can't forget about Lorian Hemingway too.And my March Holidays are almost completely burnt, so I've got to do all this work tomorrow and Friday. I'm in for one hell of a race. God's gotta give me strength.

On a different note, My 2.4 km run is now 11:24. That's a great timing for me, considering my girth. =)) Really, really happy about that. At least I'm looking forward to having fun with my cell at the PHS fair. And Sunday morning. Sunday evening, I can't say. March Camp approaches.

I got to get back to work.

Nitez.

Chinese

For once, my low Chinese results really bugged me. For the past few years, I've been consistently getting low marks for Chinese, but there's always been people who do worse than me, so we can all happily 'just pass' together. But now, I'm the lowest by far. And I'm not quite happy.

Why does everyone's Chinese have to be so pro?

Anyway. At least I only have ERP, CRP and MPP to do during Week 10. Finished most of the other stuff. Which is great! =D Look on the bright side, I guess. My other results haven't been so bad. At least for Bio. I'm very well sure I screwed my Chem SPA. And my maths. I'm quite discouraged right now.

Okay. That's all. Going to play guitar now.

Bye!

=D

Keep myself happy!

Not good.

Bio test wasn't that good. There wasn't enough time, and I rushed through all of my structured questions. I'm not sure if I made any big mistakes, careless ones especially. There's a timed Geog open book assignment tomorrow and I'm nervous. I can't study, because right now my brain is too tired to take in much of anything. Thank God its open-book. But that means the question will be harder and the marking will be stricter. Really no confidence for this one. Lots of work to do tomorrow, so I better go sleep soon.

So tired.

Parade today was stupid. So little attendance. Wasn't it a great idea to call for a full uniform parade, slated to do drill, give out BB week cards, and March Camp Briefing during a CCT week? Don't they know that its extremely unappealing to turn up?

Spiritually, I'm kinda off too.

Gotta get back on track.

Sigh.

What's wrong with me? So listless nowadays..

=(

Why must we have full uniform tomorrow? Even when muster parade has been canceled. It costs me time to polish my uniform, time that I could use to study for my Bio CCT.

Plus I need to bring more than two sets of clothes to school tomorrow. It's such a hassle.

Sigh.

Nervous for Bio CCT.

God help me!

Aaargh!

5 days.

5 more days of school to the next weekend. I can barely wait.

Actually, I can't wait for this 5 days to be over. In chinese, I 恨不得明天是星期五.

Sigh.

I've got the three most stressful CCTs and the most stressful humanities test. Chem, Bio, A-math, and Geography.

Damn.

Plus muster parade. I'm in for a heck of a week.

Surprisingly, I found cross-country to be quite easy. 4.8 kilometres, wasn't too hard at all. Looks like my fears were unfounded. Anyway, tomorrow's maths CCT. And I'm nervous. And stressed.

At least I had a good time in church today.

I really need God's help this week.

Cross Country

Okay. Tomorrow is cross-country. And I seriously don't feel like going. I mean, I'm not a person who enjoys jogging, unlike some other people. I don't go for AQ, and I only exercise by playing sports, or occasionally, by doing a bit of sets here and there. So, why?

They say must have some kind of bonding spirit. I also don't get what bonding spirit will happen if we run together. I'll just have to treat is as a chance to exercise!

Not to mention the March Camp is 4 days 3 nights, just because we have to go to some kind of 'high elements' camp. Which, in my opinion, is a horrible idea! Waste my time, don't we all do high elements in OBS?

Seriously, I wish there was a G12 conference to look forward to. Sanctification Week's a long long time away.

At least I can go church. Some people can't even do that.

Tomorrow's going to be a LONG day.

Sigh.

Still have so much revision to do.

Ridiculous, when everyone has finished their CTs, I still have three more.

=(

Psalms 4:7!

Claim! =D

Weekend's coming

Amazingly, I've managed to get through this week. I haven't been very faithful in fasting from TV shows, but I promise from now on, I won't watch TV shows until this forty days is over! Though I have been skipping lunch....

Anyway. I'm still feeling guilty now. Got to make better on what I do. I shouldn't be a hypocrite. Ah well. There's cross country on Saturday, and I seriously don't feel like going. But I have to. So I've got to chiong all my homework tomorrow afternoon so I can make it for the baptism service. I'm feeling discouraged again. So much things piling up. It's a very good thing that I've managed to do most of my homework, but I think that there might be quite a large amount of homework to be given out tomorrow. I'm really quite worried.

Probably can't go.

Sian!

Everyone seems to busy for church things nowadays, including me. Lucky thing I can always go on Sunday...

Thank God.

I'm going to be very busy over the next two days. God give me strength!

Looking forward to the period after Chinese Tuition on saturday! =D

Forty Days

Okay, Pastor just declared us to fast forty days, one meal, and also from something that we love most, and to take that time for us to get closer to God. I'm kinda excited actually, and anyway, God really touched me today in church. When pastor asked us to go down to experience God's love, I was hit by Him. Literally. Halfway down to the front, I began to tear. Once I reached and knelt, I started crying. Not like, tearing. But crying. Not wailing la, but seriously, my shirt was kinda wet when I stopped. Everyone was tearing up, (at least), and drowning, (at least me) in the Holy Spirit. I experienced God's love and the Holy Spirit's powerful presence in a way that I've never done before. So, its been a really fruitful Sunday.

So for this next forty days, we've to set aside one hour just for God. In that our, we have to pray, read the bible, or worship God. At this point of time last year, I'd probably have thought, 'crazy' and forgot about the whole thing. But know, I'm quite determined to see it through. Get God to help me of course. Anyway, this whole impromptu fasting thing also means the instead of the equipping classes on Sunday, we get to hold cell group. I'm not complaining, of course.

The whole climax of this church-wide thing is Good Friday. That still seems quite a long way of.

Anyway, CCTs are here! Got to go study.

Anyway, something important I took away from Sol today. Don't use your school work as an excuse not the read the Word of God, not to go to church. Put God first, and He won't shortchange us.

=D God bless all of you for the upcoming week.

Crazy?

I'm kinda crazy. I finished doing all the pertinent homework, but I haven't done much for all my projects. I'm feeling quite guilty now, but I can't help it. Too busy watching shows. Sigh. It's as bad as anime.

Anyway, tomorrow's muster parade. They must certainly think we have nothing better to do. Not to mention that this year's March camp is going to be 4 days 3 nights! What about holidays? What about rest? What about homework? Sigh.

Going to continue watching.

=D

About the only good thing today.

School is really boring. Can't keep my eyes open unless I take notes or the lesson is interesting.

Which means I don't really listen during Chinese, Geog or SS.

Gotta buck up!

Back to work

That was certainly a very refreshing break. But I have to go back to work. And today's sermon was especially meaningful. It had three points. Two of which are beautifully captured in the song 'Devotion' by Hillsong United. It kinda struck me in the sermon. Anyway, I'm really inspired by this sermon to be a better person and to make Jesus the Lord of my entire life!

In terms of CNY, I've definitely gained weight. Damn. =(((

Ah well. And we did have a good time playing taboo, guitar, and whatnot at our houses.

Anyway. Yeah.

=D Guitar rocks. Feeling random. At the moment, that is.

Got to go sleep. Nitez to everyone. And Bio CCT is around the corner

*Gasps*

God, give me strength!

Well...

I managed to surprise myself. I did a math question that stumped me without seeking help. That may not be an achievement for you, but it certainly is for me. =D Gave me quite an amount of encouragement. =D

Thank God. It's a timely boost.

Going visiting with my cell tomorrow. Going to sleep now.

Nitez! And have good weekend.

If you ever read this. Not many people will.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Happy Lunar New Year, and not just to the Chinese out there!

Anyway, I've managed to finish my homework. But definitely not my projects and revision. I've got to study for the damned Bio test coming up. And all those projects...

Ah well. Gotta work hard on Sunday.

Well, I'm sure I'm gonna get fat soon at the rate I'm going. Eating so much Chinese New Year goodies, steamboat food and so on and so forth. So I'm going to resolve to not eat so much. Don't want to get so fat over this CNY season.

Oh well. I'm going to guitar now.

Because there really isn't anything to say, I'll save my words for sometime else.

Disappointment

I'm disappointed at my self. All I managed to do today was to finish my SS homework. And some math. Otherwise, all I did was to read fanfic. Oh well. Gotta work much harder tomorrow. Focus...

Somehow, I'm not looking forward to CNY anymore. All I want to do is to sleep. And forget about homework and all my troubles.

I'm so tired! Could fall asleep right now.

Sigh.

Ah well....

Homework

They find that giving homework over the CNY break is very fun. I certainly don't think so. Especially when I know that I definitely won't have any time to do homework over the CNY break. So I've to chiong everything now. Darn it. Why can't they ever think of it that way. Sure, most people stay at home and play com, but I don't. Why?

Got to go do homework, so I don't have time for a long post. But I'm just thinking. Should the fact that I'm from some stupid school affect the things I do and the people I talk to? Anyway. I don't think it should matter a single bit.

Gotta concentrate.

Sigh.

Tears.

Its been a long time since I've cried in church. But today somehow the presence of God was so strong and I teared up. Worship wasn't anything special until the last song. Made taking the Lord's Supper after that extra good. =D Felt God's presence so strongly today! Well, that great. Gotta thank God for all that...

While the sermon wasn't anything special today, the altar call was. Felt as if it was tailor-made for me. So I went down, with Craig and Daniel following. Anyway. I got some things off my mind, heart and soul. Overall, a great Sunday. Great fellowship. But we seem to be kinda violent today. Everyone. Wonder why. Strange I guess... It's not my fault... ._. Honest. Maybe it is. Childish people...

Okay. It's two days of school, but there's quite of bit of assignments and projects and test coming up after Chinese New Year. So as to enjoy the CNY break, I'm going to have work extra hard during the next two days so I can enjoy the break. God give me the strength and efficiency.


Ah well. There's school tomorrow. And BB. I can't help but wish there wasn't BB so I could chiong home and finish up more homework and stuff.

Wishes?

Psalm 17:3
Psalm 32:8

Anyway.

Incoming...

Okay. At least we didn't screw up big time like some other groups from other schools. But still, I feel, as probably was the point of today's whole activity that we have much to improve on for our proposal. So we'll have to work on it. And I'm feeling the stress cos I've to complete all my CNY homework before the CNY break, cos I know I won't have time to do it. I plan to enjoy myself! =D

So yeah. Tomorrow is Sunday! Finally. Anyway, today Chinese tuition helped me revise for my test, so that is part of my work done. And I've got almost all tests except chemistry coming up over the next next and next x3 weeks. Stress.

Darn.

Where am I gonna find the time to guitar?

Ah well.

When there's a will, there's a way I guess.

Psalm 4:7, Psalm 17:3

=D

Friday! =D

It's friday! And I don't have math tuition today, so I can focus on completing all my homework and getting read for tomorrow's MPP presentation...

Today my guitaring is worse than ever. Can't even play some easy songs properly. Just frustrated and stressed over MPP. I'll be glad when the selection's over. At least I can look forward to Sunday, and of course, the CNY break coming up. But after the CNY break, I've got tons of stuff to do, homework, projects, and exams coming up.

Even this weekend. When i get back from MOE tomorrow, I gotta choing some revision. Sigh.

Sunday, come on!

Midweek Blues?

Okay. So its midweek. And its two more days of school and one saturday of MPP. Can't wait for Sunday. Okay, so I perfected Lead me to the Cross! =D But perfection of Hosanna is still far, far away...

and MPP is causing me a big headache. So much to do. But I'm going to go sleep now. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Gotta ask God to give me the strength for the next few days. So many things coming up, MPP proposal presentation, Maths TA, assignments due... Lit Peer teaching...

I'm tired of all this...

Psalms 4:7

=D

Back to Square One

I've been inspired by Chia. That as much as possible, I'll play the original difficult chords. Joshua so pro lor...

Okay. Now I have to do some stupid chinese compo. For tuition homework.

Sigh...

I want to practice guitar!

All for Love

I can finally play the song! Meaning the song that is my title. And I memorized Hosanna! =D=D=D

Oh well. Today isn't too bad. I scored a last gasp goal in captains ball. Doesn't seem like much but if the guy is so tall that when he jumps he's much taller than your captain, that's quite an achievement. Feinting! =)

But the homeworks all coming in. MPP is really stressful lor. So many things to do. No time to guitar. =(

But tomorrow is a really heavy going day. Sigh.

But I think I can come back early!

Guitar! Rawr. Okay. I confess I'm addicted.

And I don't really like boring lessons. Like the lessons tomorrow.

Back to Codex Alimentarius.


Psalm 17:3 - I must put this into practice! It's so difficult.

Beginning? Ending?

Okay, so its the last sunday that we serve, and its bittersweet that while we can have more time to ourselves, and have a decent lunch, not have to do a mad rush just to get to ushering duty, we don't have to have so little time for processing and interaction.

Anyway, Sol is really good. I mean. Intercession is kinda interesting, but am I a hypocrite? That's the question I'm facing at the moment. Just a couple of hours after I get back from church, I manage to make my parents real mad.

That makes me feel really guilty.

Is church just some social club to hang out at?

Is my faith real?

I'd like to think it is. But I need to see its fruits in my life.

God, I really, really, really, need your help in this. Psalm 17:3 remember?

And Psalms 4:7

And we're back to school.

MPP, tests and homework.

Sighz.

God, I know you're there...

Maybe...

Okay... I need to polish up on my guitar skills. Sigh. I'm still screwing up on my chord changing. Especially Bm. Sigh...

Actually, its quite a good thing that I've actually been able to keep up with my work and squeeze in time for guitaring and chatting. It actually amazes me quite a lot. But that's a good thing. And I'll try to keep it up.

Tomorrow I have to go down to NUS for some introductory lecture to MPP. Now that's really far away. And I have to rush back just so I can swallow my dinner and get ready for Math tuition. But after that... I'll probably guitar before heading back to homework! =)

Anyway, the week's ending! Hooray! Sunday is coming.

Guess I'm feeling quite random today.

Boy, bio and geog notes are irritating to copy...

So you would come...

I have nothing more to say other than the fact that I've got tons of homework and projects to do. =(

So therefore, I'm going to type out another of my favourite songs...


Before the world began,
You were on His mind.
And ev'ry tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son,
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.

Nothing you can do,
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done,
Could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son.
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.


Come to the Father
Though your gift is small,
Broken hearts, broken lives,
He will take them all.
The power of the Word,
The power of His blood,
Ev'rything was done
So you would come.

=D

Nothing to say?

Okay... So I rested at home, and now my leg's much better. The medicine works, at least.

But I missed cell today =(

Ah well....

At least I didn't waste my time at home.

Today's post is really short....

Cos there really isn't anything to talk about.

Muscle pull now.

I'm really bemoaning my fate. I can't play ball, kick ball, run, do drill, or anything for two weeks. Cos I've pulled a muscle at my hip! Wonder how I ever pulled that off. Note the pun! Sigh..

Really unhappy now.

But I'll have to look on the bright side, I guess...

Muscle strain? Really suay....

Okay. Today wasn't too bad, except for the fact I somehow managed to strain my thigh muscle during PT. Now that's really pissing, cos I might not be able to play basketball during PE tomorrow. Really disappointing, for me. Anyway, math is getting harder to understand, so I've got to put in more effort. And well, all the other subjects too.

I'm quite sure I did badly at my first chinese test. As usual. But, I'll do better for the next one. This is not to mention that I can't go for cell tomorrow. I'm jealous of those who can go, and angry at those who can go and won't. I mean. I can't go and I want to go, but you can and you don't want to! Now that makes me feel really unhappy. Ah well...

Tomorrow's a shorter day. Lets hope it'll be better than today! =)

Good to bad?

Okay. Today, Sol was definitely inspiring. Taught us a hands-on session on how to do intercession. Quite powerful really. The most powerful school of leaders lesson I've been to so far! Guess it all depends on the trainer. Pastor Evelyn(sp?) and Danny were really good! I'll be happy to have them for the next few weeks. =)

Today, ushering, word and worship was good too! Ushering, we started off on a bad note by racing for the bus. Me and Joel was queuing up at the teochew mixed rice stall when we got the call that the bus was leaving and there was no seats left. Almost none, at least. So we chionged all the way to the bus and got there just in time. There were waiting for us. Quite paiseh. Ah well, so I had to sit with one of Cynthia's girls. (I think) And eat my lunch. Couldn't find anyone to talk to so I took a nap. Sector A wasn't too bad, but this time I was practically in charge of A4! Scary. Not to mention my partner Josh was doing this for the first time. Oh well, at least everything went off without a hitch. We gave out the offering bags, counted the people and sat down for the sermon.

Worship rocked! =) We sang In the Freedom we Know, Forevermore, Glory to God and The Stand! =) Really nice. And then the sermon was kinda applicable. And it made me feel guilty. Especially about the taking advantage of others part. Now don't think sick. I mean like, just cos you can bully him you bully him. That kind of thing.

Things started to unravel when I asked my parents about having cell on Tuesday. I mean, its not even confirmed yet but well, I still got scolded badly when I asked for a second time. =( I dunno whether I should have even pressed the subject. So now I'm feeling kinda down. Its a very good thing tomorrow isn't that hard or heavy-going.

So its one more week. =( Here we go

Random? Maybe.

It's Saturday. Woke up a bit late, and managed to chiong the MPP proposal before lunch. After lunch, chinese tuition. After that, went through the summary of fengshenyanyi, among other preparations for the test on monday. =( I'm quite sure I'll do badly, but I must hope for the best!

And well, I guitared, ate dinner, did random stuff until now. Where I'm going to try to review the chapter on Set theory. There really isn't any other homework due. But the great temptation is my guitar! So many new songs to play! =) Ah well. Homework first.

Tomorrow's sunday! Sol2 and ushering coming right up!

It's Friday again...

Okay. Today wasn't that bad. Quite slack actually. But well, its a good thing I'm not failing too badly at math. I mean, I can at least grasp what I'm supposed to do. But I get confused over simple stuff like expansion, and where the damned square root is supposed to go. And of course, I mix up the rules, divide where I'm not supposed to divide and so on. But still, I managed to do the two homework questions! =) Not that its a lot, but still, one small step at a time. Chinese, I think I screwed it up badly, and I can't understand why the teacher was praising me for something that I still can't figure out. Or maybe she was being sarcastic. Probably so.

Sigh. My chinese is really, really horrible.

Oh well, today I chionged home, bathed, chionged some Star Wars fan fiction, my homework, and then finally guitared for about like 4 plus hours? My fingers still hurt. Ouch. But it was damn fun. =) Learned several new songs. But they do take lots of practice! I'm feeling a bit down. Looking at the projects piling up, MPP, CRP, ERP, blah blah blah. Yeah.

So well, it's Friday tomorrow, and I can go for Word Encounter! Hooray! It'll be great having the extra fellowship with my bros and with God. Ah well, and I'm going to borders to use my $10 voucher, and then if there's time, I might just go to Crest.

Might. Hope for the best.

I'm a bit confused. But about what, I can't figure out.

Eyes open, but barely.

Well, I guess full u wasn't all that bad today. But, next Wednesday, we have to have it again. Muster parade. And we need to relearn all our drill timings so we can be standardized. Really frustrating. After all that we've learnt.... Well. It's another challenge.

And people do surprise me. As usual. Never thought that this would happen. More people that need help. Should I go help them, or should I just sit back and handle my own issues. I probably should do both. I'll try.

I'm really quite tired, but remember Psalms 4:7! =)

Okay, God bless.

More and more

Okay. They just had to give me another problem. Two problems. Apart from my own stuff, I've got to get ready for full uniform tomorrow. Couldn't they have given us two days notice? I had to help a friend out today. As well as complete my work. And my guitar.

Not to mention that now I've got to think about RE. And what topics. Sigh. Its not really a problem. Just extra homework. So much homework. Sigh.

So now, here I am, with polishing and my chinese tuition homework to do.

Just great.

Still, have to look on the bright side.

Long pants tomorrow!

PE tomorrow!

Double RE! I don't quite know how I should react.

We'll see how tomorrow.

P.S. I won't be posting about OBS anymore. So if you want to know more, come and ask me! Haha.

Back on Track

Well, I'm feeling better today. Its just quite retarded that we still can't wear long pants until Wednesday. Feeling frustrated. And my school bag's so heavy with both the chem and the bio textbooks on it. On top of all that, I've got all my subjects, projects, RE and CCA to worry about. All the works beginning to come in and pile up, and I'm stuck in the center. I'm going to chiong all the work I have so that I'll have the whole of Friday afternoon and night to spend with the cell group. And at Borders. Oh well. So if you've something for me to do, tell me ASAP!

So my little bit of emo spell is over. It might come back. It all depends on what happens. Actually, that shouldn't be the way. No matter what, I should not let the situation determine my emotions. Continue to claim Psalm 4:7! And God will continue to protect those who are righteous and follow him! And I will rise, on Eagle's Wings...

Long pants on Wednesday! =)


Come live in me, all my life,

Take over.

Come breathe in me, and I will rise,

On Eagle's Wings.

Crossroads

Somehow I feel that I'm slipping away. Not that I'm gonna die, but I being more and more distant from my friends. Is it my fault? What did I do wrong? Should I have just ignored the problems, pretended nothing was wrong and just continued with life? Should I have confronted what I thought was unfair to me? Or is my perception just warped? My head's spinning. I just hope that God will grant me the grace for me to come out of this period stronger than before. And that my relationship with my friend remains intact. Or maybe stronger.

I'm going to cry if this keeps up.

Why do I leave myself so vulnerable?

That's a very good question.

Nothing to do but to trust and find rest in the Lord.

Highlight to read.

My life belongs to you
              
You gave you're life for me
            
You're grace is all I need

Jesus you're all I need

       
Hold me in your arms
      
You never let me go

I wanna spend eternity with You



And now that you're near
     
Everything is different
      
Everything's so different, Lord
       
I know I'm not the same
     
My life you've changed
       
I wanna be with You
       
I wanna be with You

It's Sunday again!

Yup, its Sunday again. And instead of serving in frontliners, I'm serving in Sector A. It's quite different. For one, we get to watch the choir warm up. And the songs we sang were quite nice today. =)

We sang Salvation is Here, Take it All, and Follow The Son. For worship it was Hosanna and Dwelling Place. Very nice indeed! Had a great worship time. It was good and refreshing after all those long days in OBS. Anyway, although our job in Sector A is more complicated, its actually much simpler. Because it requires less energy and less physical effort!

So yeah, and I need to continue to learn my guitar properly.

So we're back to school. Back to the mugging life. And balancing it with church, slacking and playing guitar. I've got a big job ahead of me.

Sigh.

Here we go again. One more week

I'm back!

So I'm back. After five days and four nights of sleeping in tents, hiking around the place, kayaking around, and generally going back to basics. Whew. It's definitely been tiring, but its been very fruitful as well. Made many new friends, and forged strong bonds together with the people in 3C. Certainly very memorable.

Out of all the many things that I learnt, I somehow managed to feel God's presence with me at some points of time during the camp. Like I'm humming/singing forevermore, and I feel His touch! =) Very nice! God gave me the strength and presence to complete all the activities. =) Thank God. Also prevented any sinus inflammation from happening, and my eczema isn't that bad. And during the kayaking and hiking, singing worship songs, either in my head, or with Chia, and praying helped me overcome my pain and stuff. Oh well. Thank God for safely bringing me through. Not to forget my watch mates and other people who helped me. And of course the instructors. Invaluable guidance and support. Sounds cliched but its the truth.

Okay. I must start at the beginning. Actually the first few days weren't quite exciting or meaningful. Started on the third day. Where we hiked for another campsite in the wilderness. No shelter, no electricity, no fresh water. We had to bring jerricans. Heavy! But during such circumstances, we get to bond with each other. And of course, push our limits. So we got to the campsite, pitched our tents in the dark, cooked in the dark, did our business in the dark, got briefed by our instructors in the dark and settled in. Now, the tents were wet, sandy, and muddy. So we covered up the tent with ponchos, which were LESS sandy and wet. But still quite. So it was kinda uncomfortable. But as we were tired, most of us managed to rest.

Then, next up, sentry duty! Eeks. Me and my tent-mates were slated for the 1am to 1:30am slot. So, we were woken up by the previous people on duty and we started walking around, shining our torches here and there, so on and so forth. Then, at the borders of the camp, we started to hear a strange howling. We cocked our ears and listened. Still, we couldn't quite figure out what it was. Then, someone from the other tents couldn't sleep and decided to join us. He told us that it sounded similar to some howling that he'd heard dogs do. And so of course, as it was kinda far away, we were relieved. Suddenly, the sound became a little louder. And now, we could hear faintly but distinctively the sound of metal against metal. Drums. Now we were scared. Was there some native tribe that was waiting to attack us? Probably not. But unknown is always dangerous. And it kept us on our nerves. Soon, the sounds got louder. By now, we knew it was music. It was very eerie and it had flutes, drums and sounded rather tribal. Now we were getting worried. However, there was something else more immediate to attend to, and I'll tell you about it in the next blog post. Getting a bit too long, this blog post is!

Haha. =)

OBS, here we go. And of course, today's sunday.

OBS is coming. And I've just finished packing. I don't really think I'm prepared for this. I have no idea what this camp is going to be like. Probably the most harrowing that I've experienced so far. And I don't think I'm really prepared for it... Repeating myself. Sigh.

Today, I went down early to have breakfast with my bros at Redhill. Spiritual bros. If you get my drift. Then off to SOL 2. Not really very inspiring or pivotal, but looking at the notes, it'll get better in the later lessons. Anyway. Serving as frontliners again in ushering duty, but I'm getting shifted to Sector A. Its good to try new things! We've got a new vest and cap for this year of sabbath. Red this time. Including the umbrellas. They're all brand new. Still can smell that factory smell. And the best part was, Craig broke his as soon as he laid hands on it! Unbelievable! Just the usual general frontliner duty. Nothing special. After service, usual stuff. Nothing really unexpected. But all I have to say is that I'm quite looking forward to this Year of Sabbath.

Anyway, my tuition teachers aren't that bad. At least, I haven't found out yet.

Sigh...

Diarrhoea again. But without water. Really weird. Having it for two days now. Haiz.....

Wish I didn't fall sick so easily. My cough isn't getting better either! It was better yesterday, but today... It got worse. Must have been last night's backflow. Not to mention a mild fever....

Pray for me? I've got to get well before OBS next week.

The Stand

Yet another song that I like!

You stood before creation
Forever within Your hand
You spoke all life into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
And carried the cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
And what could I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Bring my feet to the ground...

Can I catch what's left of my childhood innocence in my bare hands? Return the pure untainted lenses to my eyes? Probably not. I've lost what I can't regain. Ignorance is bliss. Ah well, ignore my ramblings.

I'm really floating. Not caring about what Chinese test I'm going to have in two weeks time. Not really caring about the Math Set Theory Test coming up. Anyway, I was able to get through today's math assignment without much trouble. Thank God I remember my set theory work! Anyway, I don't think its that hard. But still, I've to buckle down to work.

I feel as if I'm hovering above the real world, still detached from the work that I know if definitely coming down the pipeline at me. I'm still absorbed in holiday stuff. Like slacking around, reading my favourite Star Wars books, and even trying to play From the Inside Out. I've got to start working. But there hasn't been any work yet, since I've finished my holiday homework already. We'll see what happens. Take things as they come to me. No... I should at least attempt to preempt. (That was deliberate!)

Okay. First English Lit lesson tomorrow. I don't really know what to expect. I hope I'll be surprised. In a good way, of course! =) Come to think of it, my teachers aren't that bad really. The chem teacher's quite nice, the math teacher isn't all that bad, and the Chinese teacher's better than I expected. Thank God for them. Hope my view of them won't change as time goes by. I hope.

And I've got math tuition tomorrow. Dunno what to expect. Don't feel like going, but I have to. Not to mention I've gotta go down early for Raffles Trail in FULL uniform on Saturday, then rush back for Chinese tuition in the afternoon. Then a breather, then I've gotta rush around to pick up my OBS stuff. Maybe even a pair of shoes. We'll see.

Really looking forward to Sunday. Its back to Sol at Redhill. Hooray! But I've got ushering after that. Frontliner duty back again. That part, not quite looking forward to. But I'm still serving God, so I'll be happy! Haha.

So well, This blog post is quite long. And tomorrow's too, I guess.

God's presence is great! =)

Back to School

First day back. And I'm already kinda unhappy. The class is fine. There's enough people who I know, and there's a good mix of us. It's just that well, I don't quite like our new form teacher. I mean, I know I shouldn't judge people. But well, somehow I get the feeling I won't quite enjoy English and Lit as much this year. This teacher's much more strict. But well, time will tell. Maybe its just one side of her that we're seeing just now. I prayed that God would give me good teachers, so I'm quite sure He's got a reason why I've got this teacher.

So, I guess I should be optimistic. Its a brand new year. And well, I guess it will go by quickly. Even if I don't think so now. It may go by quickly, but it doesn't seem that fast to me. As I look back, Sec 2 seems a long way off from now. Long long way. So as time flies, I must fly with it. Keep up, and don't drop away. Stay on task! Study!

Gotta balance school and church. Sol2's starting! And I'm down for frontliner duty on the next four sundays! Busy, busy, busy!

Oh well. That's all for now.

To Know Your Name

Third post today. I'm restless, and I've got a new favourite song.

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems.
Forgiven I'm alive restored set free.
Your majesty resides inside of me.
Forever I believe.
Forever I believe.

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness.
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness.
Convicted By Your Spirit.
Led by Your word.
Your love will never fail.
Your love will never fail.

I know You gave
the world Your only Son for us
To know Your name.
To live within the Saviour's love.
You took my place.
Knowing You'd be crucified.
And You loved.
You loved a people undeserving.

Floating?

Makes me think, what have I accomplished during this holiday?

Done my Chinese book review, commonwealth essay, and read some new books.

Gone to Israel and back, generally made myself a nuisance to my family and friends. Maybe not.

Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I feel that I've wasted this holiday. Sure I've got to know some friends better. Much better. Maybe too much in fact.

Learnt two songs on the guitar. Songs so elementary that I'm ashamed that I can't even play them well.

Too many maybes. How about something definitive? I certainly can't think of anything. I have to focus and buckle down at some point of time. Can't just go floating around aimlessly. Set some goals and resolutions. Which I have of course. We'll see how I do when Christmas rolls around again.

A psalm a day, for 150 days. Nice goal for Pastor Khong to set for the whole church. But, how long will I last? I don't know. And the thought isn't encouraging. I need His strength. Discipline.

It's a long year ahead. How will I fare?

I don't know. But He knows, and He'll see me through! =) Hopefully in a better state than right now.

We'll see.

2008

Happy new year to all those people who see this. If you didn't see this, then too bad. =) haha

Oh well, its one more year of work, cca and fun. Hopefully as much or more fun than last year.

It's the year of sabbath. That we have to grow closer to God. I quite looking forwards to it.

Not really looking forward to OBS though. I mean, I'll be able to lose weight, make new friends, rekindle old friendships, strengthen bonds, have fun, so on and so forth, but still, I've got my reservations. I'll still go of course.

Countdown party last night was not bad, but i still felt that last year was better. An hour to two hours of worship versus half an hour plus? Obviously last year was better. But well, we must be thankful that we were able to go in the first place.

So its back to school.

Balance between church and school, I guess. No longer so much church activities. Sigh.

Oh well...