Midweek Blues?

Okay. So its midweek. And its two more days of school and one saturday of MPP. Can't wait for Sunday. Okay, so I perfected Lead me to the Cross! =D But perfection of Hosanna is still far, far away...

and MPP is causing me a big headache. So much to do. But I'm going to go sleep now. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Gotta ask God to give me the strength for the next few days. So many things coming up, MPP proposal presentation, Maths TA, assignments due... Lit Peer teaching...

I'm tired of all this...

Psalms 4:7

=D

Back to Square One

I've been inspired by Chia. That as much as possible, I'll play the original difficult chords. Joshua so pro lor...

Okay. Now I have to do some stupid chinese compo. For tuition homework.

Sigh...

I want to practice guitar!

All for Love

I can finally play the song! Meaning the song that is my title. And I memorized Hosanna! =D=D=D

Oh well. Today isn't too bad. I scored a last gasp goal in captains ball. Doesn't seem like much but if the guy is so tall that when he jumps he's much taller than your captain, that's quite an achievement. Feinting! =)

But the homeworks all coming in. MPP is really stressful lor. So many things to do. No time to guitar. =(

But tomorrow is a really heavy going day. Sigh.

But I think I can come back early!

Guitar! Rawr. Okay. I confess I'm addicted.

And I don't really like boring lessons. Like the lessons tomorrow.

Back to Codex Alimentarius.


Psalm 17:3 - I must put this into practice! It's so difficult.

Beginning? Ending?

Okay, so its the last sunday that we serve, and its bittersweet that while we can have more time to ourselves, and have a decent lunch, not have to do a mad rush just to get to ushering duty, we don't have to have so little time for processing and interaction.

Anyway, Sol is really good. I mean. Intercession is kinda interesting, but am I a hypocrite? That's the question I'm facing at the moment. Just a couple of hours after I get back from church, I manage to make my parents real mad.

That makes me feel really guilty.

Is church just some social club to hang out at?

Is my faith real?

I'd like to think it is. But I need to see its fruits in my life.

God, I really, really, really, need your help in this. Psalm 17:3 remember?

And Psalms 4:7

And we're back to school.

MPP, tests and homework.

Sighz.

God, I know you're there...

Maybe...

Okay... I need to polish up on my guitar skills. Sigh. I'm still screwing up on my chord changing. Especially Bm. Sigh...

Actually, its quite a good thing that I've actually been able to keep up with my work and squeeze in time for guitaring and chatting. It actually amazes me quite a lot. But that's a good thing. And I'll try to keep it up.

Tomorrow I have to go down to NUS for some introductory lecture to MPP. Now that's really far away. And I have to rush back just so I can swallow my dinner and get ready for Math tuition. But after that... I'll probably guitar before heading back to homework! =)

Anyway, the week's ending! Hooray! Sunday is coming.

Guess I'm feeling quite random today.

Boy, bio and geog notes are irritating to copy...

So you would come...

I have nothing more to say other than the fact that I've got tons of homework and projects to do. =(

So therefore, I'm going to type out another of my favourite songs...


Before the world began,
You were on His mind.
And ev'ry tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son,
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.

Nothing you can do,
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done,
Could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son.
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.


Come to the Father
Though your gift is small,
Broken hearts, broken lives,
He will take them all.
The power of the Word,
The power of His blood,
Ev'rything was done
So you would come.

=D

Nothing to say?

Okay... So I rested at home, and now my leg's much better. The medicine works, at least.

But I missed cell today =(

Ah well....

At least I didn't waste my time at home.

Today's post is really short....

Cos there really isn't anything to talk about.

Muscle pull now.

I'm really bemoaning my fate. I can't play ball, kick ball, run, do drill, or anything for two weeks. Cos I've pulled a muscle at my hip! Wonder how I ever pulled that off. Note the pun! Sigh..

Really unhappy now.

But I'll have to look on the bright side, I guess...

Muscle strain? Really suay....

Okay. Today wasn't too bad, except for the fact I somehow managed to strain my thigh muscle during PT. Now that's really pissing, cos I might not be able to play basketball during PE tomorrow. Really disappointing, for me. Anyway, math is getting harder to understand, so I've got to put in more effort. And well, all the other subjects too.

I'm quite sure I did badly at my first chinese test. As usual. But, I'll do better for the next one. This is not to mention that I can't go for cell tomorrow. I'm jealous of those who can go, and angry at those who can go and won't. I mean. I can't go and I want to go, but you can and you don't want to! Now that makes me feel really unhappy. Ah well...

Tomorrow's a shorter day. Lets hope it'll be better than today! =)

Good to bad?

Okay. Today, Sol was definitely inspiring. Taught us a hands-on session on how to do intercession. Quite powerful really. The most powerful school of leaders lesson I've been to so far! Guess it all depends on the trainer. Pastor Evelyn(sp?) and Danny were really good! I'll be happy to have them for the next few weeks. =)

Today, ushering, word and worship was good too! Ushering, we started off on a bad note by racing for the bus. Me and Joel was queuing up at the teochew mixed rice stall when we got the call that the bus was leaving and there was no seats left. Almost none, at least. So we chionged all the way to the bus and got there just in time. There were waiting for us. Quite paiseh. Ah well, so I had to sit with one of Cynthia's girls. (I think) And eat my lunch. Couldn't find anyone to talk to so I took a nap. Sector A wasn't too bad, but this time I was practically in charge of A4! Scary. Not to mention my partner Josh was doing this for the first time. Oh well, at least everything went off without a hitch. We gave out the offering bags, counted the people and sat down for the sermon.

Worship rocked! =) We sang In the Freedom we Know, Forevermore, Glory to God and The Stand! =) Really nice. And then the sermon was kinda applicable. And it made me feel guilty. Especially about the taking advantage of others part. Now don't think sick. I mean like, just cos you can bully him you bully him. That kind of thing.

Things started to unravel when I asked my parents about having cell on Tuesday. I mean, its not even confirmed yet but well, I still got scolded badly when I asked for a second time. =( I dunno whether I should have even pressed the subject. So now I'm feeling kinda down. Its a very good thing tomorrow isn't that hard or heavy-going.

So its one more week. =( Here we go

Random? Maybe.

It's Saturday. Woke up a bit late, and managed to chiong the MPP proposal before lunch. After lunch, chinese tuition. After that, went through the summary of fengshenyanyi, among other preparations for the test on monday. =( I'm quite sure I'll do badly, but I must hope for the best!

And well, I guitared, ate dinner, did random stuff until now. Where I'm going to try to review the chapter on Set theory. There really isn't any other homework due. But the great temptation is my guitar! So many new songs to play! =) Ah well. Homework first.

Tomorrow's sunday! Sol2 and ushering coming right up!

It's Friday again...

Okay. Today wasn't that bad. Quite slack actually. But well, its a good thing I'm not failing too badly at math. I mean, I can at least grasp what I'm supposed to do. But I get confused over simple stuff like expansion, and where the damned square root is supposed to go. And of course, I mix up the rules, divide where I'm not supposed to divide and so on. But still, I managed to do the two homework questions! =) Not that its a lot, but still, one small step at a time. Chinese, I think I screwed it up badly, and I can't understand why the teacher was praising me for something that I still can't figure out. Or maybe she was being sarcastic. Probably so.

Sigh. My chinese is really, really horrible.

Oh well, today I chionged home, bathed, chionged some Star Wars fan fiction, my homework, and then finally guitared for about like 4 plus hours? My fingers still hurt. Ouch. But it was damn fun. =) Learned several new songs. But they do take lots of practice! I'm feeling a bit down. Looking at the projects piling up, MPP, CRP, ERP, blah blah blah. Yeah.

So well, it's Friday tomorrow, and I can go for Word Encounter! Hooray! It'll be great having the extra fellowship with my bros and with God. Ah well, and I'm going to borders to use my $10 voucher, and then if there's time, I might just go to Crest.

Might. Hope for the best.

I'm a bit confused. But about what, I can't figure out.

Eyes open, but barely.

Well, I guess full u wasn't all that bad today. But, next Wednesday, we have to have it again. Muster parade. And we need to relearn all our drill timings so we can be standardized. Really frustrating. After all that we've learnt.... Well. It's another challenge.

And people do surprise me. As usual. Never thought that this would happen. More people that need help. Should I go help them, or should I just sit back and handle my own issues. I probably should do both. I'll try.

I'm really quite tired, but remember Psalms 4:7! =)

Okay, God bless.

More and more

Okay. They just had to give me another problem. Two problems. Apart from my own stuff, I've got to get ready for full uniform tomorrow. Couldn't they have given us two days notice? I had to help a friend out today. As well as complete my work. And my guitar.

Not to mention that now I've got to think about RE. And what topics. Sigh. Its not really a problem. Just extra homework. So much homework. Sigh.

So now, here I am, with polishing and my chinese tuition homework to do.

Just great.

Still, have to look on the bright side.

Long pants tomorrow!

PE tomorrow!

Double RE! I don't quite know how I should react.

We'll see how tomorrow.

P.S. I won't be posting about OBS anymore. So if you want to know more, come and ask me! Haha.

Back on Track

Well, I'm feeling better today. Its just quite retarded that we still can't wear long pants until Wednesday. Feeling frustrated. And my school bag's so heavy with both the chem and the bio textbooks on it. On top of all that, I've got all my subjects, projects, RE and CCA to worry about. All the works beginning to come in and pile up, and I'm stuck in the center. I'm going to chiong all the work I have so that I'll have the whole of Friday afternoon and night to spend with the cell group. And at Borders. Oh well. So if you've something for me to do, tell me ASAP!

So my little bit of emo spell is over. It might come back. It all depends on what happens. Actually, that shouldn't be the way. No matter what, I should not let the situation determine my emotions. Continue to claim Psalm 4:7! And God will continue to protect those who are righteous and follow him! And I will rise, on Eagle's Wings...

Long pants on Wednesday! =)


Come live in me, all my life,

Take over.

Come breathe in me, and I will rise,

On Eagle's Wings.

Crossroads

Somehow I feel that I'm slipping away. Not that I'm gonna die, but I being more and more distant from my friends. Is it my fault? What did I do wrong? Should I have just ignored the problems, pretended nothing was wrong and just continued with life? Should I have confronted what I thought was unfair to me? Or is my perception just warped? My head's spinning. I just hope that God will grant me the grace for me to come out of this period stronger than before. And that my relationship with my friend remains intact. Or maybe stronger.

I'm going to cry if this keeps up.

Why do I leave myself so vulnerable?

That's a very good question.

Nothing to do but to trust and find rest in the Lord.

Highlight to read.

My life belongs to you
              
You gave you're life for me
            
You're grace is all I need

Jesus you're all I need

       
Hold me in your arms
      
You never let me go

I wanna spend eternity with You



And now that you're near
     
Everything is different
      
Everything's so different, Lord
       
I know I'm not the same
     
My life you've changed
       
I wanna be with You
       
I wanna be with You

It's Sunday again!

Yup, its Sunday again. And instead of serving in frontliners, I'm serving in Sector A. It's quite different. For one, we get to watch the choir warm up. And the songs we sang were quite nice today. =)

We sang Salvation is Here, Take it All, and Follow The Son. For worship it was Hosanna and Dwelling Place. Very nice indeed! Had a great worship time. It was good and refreshing after all those long days in OBS. Anyway, although our job in Sector A is more complicated, its actually much simpler. Because it requires less energy and less physical effort!

So yeah, and I need to continue to learn my guitar properly.

So we're back to school. Back to the mugging life. And balancing it with church, slacking and playing guitar. I've got a big job ahead of me.

Sigh.

Here we go again. One more week

I'm back!

So I'm back. After five days and four nights of sleeping in tents, hiking around the place, kayaking around, and generally going back to basics. Whew. It's definitely been tiring, but its been very fruitful as well. Made many new friends, and forged strong bonds together with the people in 3C. Certainly very memorable.

Out of all the many things that I learnt, I somehow managed to feel God's presence with me at some points of time during the camp. Like I'm humming/singing forevermore, and I feel His touch! =) Very nice! God gave me the strength and presence to complete all the activities. =) Thank God. Also prevented any sinus inflammation from happening, and my eczema isn't that bad. And during the kayaking and hiking, singing worship songs, either in my head, or with Chia, and praying helped me overcome my pain and stuff. Oh well. Thank God for safely bringing me through. Not to forget my watch mates and other people who helped me. And of course the instructors. Invaluable guidance and support. Sounds cliched but its the truth.

Okay. I must start at the beginning. Actually the first few days weren't quite exciting or meaningful. Started on the third day. Where we hiked for another campsite in the wilderness. No shelter, no electricity, no fresh water. We had to bring jerricans. Heavy! But during such circumstances, we get to bond with each other. And of course, push our limits. So we got to the campsite, pitched our tents in the dark, cooked in the dark, did our business in the dark, got briefed by our instructors in the dark and settled in. Now, the tents were wet, sandy, and muddy. So we covered up the tent with ponchos, which were LESS sandy and wet. But still quite. So it was kinda uncomfortable. But as we were tired, most of us managed to rest.

Then, next up, sentry duty! Eeks. Me and my tent-mates were slated for the 1am to 1:30am slot. So, we were woken up by the previous people on duty and we started walking around, shining our torches here and there, so on and so forth. Then, at the borders of the camp, we started to hear a strange howling. We cocked our ears and listened. Still, we couldn't quite figure out what it was. Then, someone from the other tents couldn't sleep and decided to join us. He told us that it sounded similar to some howling that he'd heard dogs do. And so of course, as it was kinda far away, we were relieved. Suddenly, the sound became a little louder. And now, we could hear faintly but distinctively the sound of metal against metal. Drums. Now we were scared. Was there some native tribe that was waiting to attack us? Probably not. But unknown is always dangerous. And it kept us on our nerves. Soon, the sounds got louder. By now, we knew it was music. It was very eerie and it had flutes, drums and sounded rather tribal. Now we were getting worried. However, there was something else more immediate to attend to, and I'll tell you about it in the next blog post. Getting a bit too long, this blog post is!

Haha. =)

OBS, here we go. And of course, today's sunday.

OBS is coming. And I've just finished packing. I don't really think I'm prepared for this. I have no idea what this camp is going to be like. Probably the most harrowing that I've experienced so far. And I don't think I'm really prepared for it... Repeating myself. Sigh.

Today, I went down early to have breakfast with my bros at Redhill. Spiritual bros. If you get my drift. Then off to SOL 2. Not really very inspiring or pivotal, but looking at the notes, it'll get better in the later lessons. Anyway. Serving as frontliners again in ushering duty, but I'm getting shifted to Sector A. Its good to try new things! We've got a new vest and cap for this year of sabbath. Red this time. Including the umbrellas. They're all brand new. Still can smell that factory smell. And the best part was, Craig broke his as soon as he laid hands on it! Unbelievable! Just the usual general frontliner duty. Nothing special. After service, usual stuff. Nothing really unexpected. But all I have to say is that I'm quite looking forward to this Year of Sabbath.

Anyway, my tuition teachers aren't that bad. At least, I haven't found out yet.

Sigh...

Diarrhoea again. But without water. Really weird. Having it for two days now. Haiz.....

Wish I didn't fall sick so easily. My cough isn't getting better either! It was better yesterday, but today... It got worse. Must have been last night's backflow. Not to mention a mild fever....

Pray for me? I've got to get well before OBS next week.

The Stand

Yet another song that I like!

You stood before creation
Forever within Your hand
You spoke all life into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
And carried the cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
And what could I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Bring my feet to the ground...

Can I catch what's left of my childhood innocence in my bare hands? Return the pure untainted lenses to my eyes? Probably not. I've lost what I can't regain. Ignorance is bliss. Ah well, ignore my ramblings.

I'm really floating. Not caring about what Chinese test I'm going to have in two weeks time. Not really caring about the Math Set Theory Test coming up. Anyway, I was able to get through today's math assignment without much trouble. Thank God I remember my set theory work! Anyway, I don't think its that hard. But still, I've to buckle down to work.

I feel as if I'm hovering above the real world, still detached from the work that I know if definitely coming down the pipeline at me. I'm still absorbed in holiday stuff. Like slacking around, reading my favourite Star Wars books, and even trying to play From the Inside Out. I've got to start working. But there hasn't been any work yet, since I've finished my holiday homework already. We'll see what happens. Take things as they come to me. No... I should at least attempt to preempt. (That was deliberate!)

Okay. First English Lit lesson tomorrow. I don't really know what to expect. I hope I'll be surprised. In a good way, of course! =) Come to think of it, my teachers aren't that bad really. The chem teacher's quite nice, the math teacher isn't all that bad, and the Chinese teacher's better than I expected. Thank God for them. Hope my view of them won't change as time goes by. I hope.

And I've got math tuition tomorrow. Dunno what to expect. Don't feel like going, but I have to. Not to mention I've gotta go down early for Raffles Trail in FULL uniform on Saturday, then rush back for Chinese tuition in the afternoon. Then a breather, then I've gotta rush around to pick up my OBS stuff. Maybe even a pair of shoes. We'll see.

Really looking forward to Sunday. Its back to Sol at Redhill. Hooray! But I've got ushering after that. Frontliner duty back again. That part, not quite looking forward to. But I'm still serving God, so I'll be happy! Haha.

So well, This blog post is quite long. And tomorrow's too, I guess.

God's presence is great! =)

Back to School

First day back. And I'm already kinda unhappy. The class is fine. There's enough people who I know, and there's a good mix of us. It's just that well, I don't quite like our new form teacher. I mean, I know I shouldn't judge people. But well, somehow I get the feeling I won't quite enjoy English and Lit as much this year. This teacher's much more strict. But well, time will tell. Maybe its just one side of her that we're seeing just now. I prayed that God would give me good teachers, so I'm quite sure He's got a reason why I've got this teacher.

So, I guess I should be optimistic. Its a brand new year. And well, I guess it will go by quickly. Even if I don't think so now. It may go by quickly, but it doesn't seem that fast to me. As I look back, Sec 2 seems a long way off from now. Long long way. So as time flies, I must fly with it. Keep up, and don't drop away. Stay on task! Study!

Gotta balance school and church. Sol2's starting! And I'm down for frontliner duty on the next four sundays! Busy, busy, busy!

Oh well. That's all for now.

To Know Your Name

Third post today. I'm restless, and I've got a new favourite song.

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems.
Forgiven I'm alive restored set free.
Your majesty resides inside of me.
Forever I believe.
Forever I believe.

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness.
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness.
Convicted By Your Spirit.
Led by Your word.
Your love will never fail.
Your love will never fail.

I know You gave
the world Your only Son for us
To know Your name.
To live within the Saviour's love.
You took my place.
Knowing You'd be crucified.
And You loved.
You loved a people undeserving.

Floating?

Makes me think, what have I accomplished during this holiday?

Done my Chinese book review, commonwealth essay, and read some new books.

Gone to Israel and back, generally made myself a nuisance to my family and friends. Maybe not.

Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I feel that I've wasted this holiday. Sure I've got to know some friends better. Much better. Maybe too much in fact.

Learnt two songs on the guitar. Songs so elementary that I'm ashamed that I can't even play them well.

Too many maybes. How about something definitive? I certainly can't think of anything. I have to focus and buckle down at some point of time. Can't just go floating around aimlessly. Set some goals and resolutions. Which I have of course. We'll see how I do when Christmas rolls around again.

A psalm a day, for 150 days. Nice goal for Pastor Khong to set for the whole church. But, how long will I last? I don't know. And the thought isn't encouraging. I need His strength. Discipline.

It's a long year ahead. How will I fare?

I don't know. But He knows, and He'll see me through! =) Hopefully in a better state than right now.

We'll see.

2008

Happy new year to all those people who see this. If you didn't see this, then too bad. =) haha

Oh well, its one more year of work, cca and fun. Hopefully as much or more fun than last year.

It's the year of sabbath. That we have to grow closer to God. I quite looking forwards to it.

Not really looking forward to OBS though. I mean, I'll be able to lose weight, make new friends, rekindle old friendships, strengthen bonds, have fun, so on and so forth, but still, I've got my reservations. I'll still go of course.

Countdown party last night was not bad, but i still felt that last year was better. An hour to two hours of worship versus half an hour plus? Obviously last year was better. But well, we must be thankful that we were able to go in the first place.

So its back to school.

Balance between church and school, I guess. No longer so much church activities. Sigh.

Oh well...