Staff Training

Lots of homework. And a rather draggy hike recce, which we were quite inefficient. However, going to bryce's house to play basketball was good. Not to mention the hoop at his house was quite nice. =D I made 50-60% of field shots outside the key, with 100% percent of shots all landing on the rim. Quite an achievement for me.

However, I'm still unable to kick my bad habits! Like biting my fingers, saying vulgarities, etc. Which really is frustrating, especially when I have no one but myself to blame... =(

Anyway. I've got to get back to my work. Slack too much already.

Torn

I'm so super distracted, and I have so many commitments to think about.

Its clearly very frustrating. I feel even worse when I forget something or leave something out. I feel worst when I try to amuse myself, but instead feel guilty that I haven't done my work.

And work makes me feel horrible. I don't know how I've come to like doing math, but hate doing writing. Its so weird. Writing the zhuantizuoye was a torture, because the subject is SO dry.

Not to mention I feel guilty when I intrude on other people to talk. Like Craig. He gets irritated when i talk to him too much. And then when i talk to others, I'm scared I'll push them away too. I dunno. Its probably my insecurity talking, but I wonder all the same.

I think I better get back to my work. I've wasted enough time slacking as it is.

Sleep

I need sleep. Or I'll fall ill.

Plus, its so super hard to keep awake in Chinese. The content isn't boring, and I can understand the teacher, but I just find it SO hard to keep my eyes open.

Hope my ring finger heals soon. Injured it during basketball today. It wasn't even a match. I was just grabbing one of the balls available. How stupid of me... Its my shooting hand. =(

Anyway. Good nite.