Chinese

For once, my low Chinese results really bugged me. For the past few years, I've been consistently getting low marks for Chinese, but there's always been people who do worse than me, so we can all happily 'just pass' together. But now, I'm the lowest by far. And I'm not quite happy.

Why does everyone's Chinese have to be so pro?

Anyway. At least I only have ERP, CRP and MPP to do during Week 10. Finished most of the other stuff. Which is great! =D Look on the bright side, I guess. My other results haven't been so bad. At least for Bio. I'm very well sure I screwed my Chem SPA. And my maths. I'm quite discouraged right now.

Okay. That's all. Going to play guitar now.

Bye!

=D

Keep myself happy!

Not good.

Bio test wasn't that good. There wasn't enough time, and I rushed through all of my structured questions. I'm not sure if I made any big mistakes, careless ones especially. There's a timed Geog open book assignment tomorrow and I'm nervous. I can't study, because right now my brain is too tired to take in much of anything. Thank God its open-book. But that means the question will be harder and the marking will be stricter. Really no confidence for this one. Lots of work to do tomorrow, so I better go sleep soon.

So tired.

Parade today was stupid. So little attendance. Wasn't it a great idea to call for a full uniform parade, slated to do drill, give out BB week cards, and March Camp Briefing during a CCT week? Don't they know that its extremely unappealing to turn up?

Spiritually, I'm kinda off too.

Gotta get back on track.

Sigh.

What's wrong with me? So listless nowadays..

=(

Why must we have full uniform tomorrow? Even when muster parade has been canceled. It costs me time to polish my uniform, time that I could use to study for my Bio CCT.

Plus I need to bring more than two sets of clothes to school tomorrow. It's such a hassle.

Sigh.

Nervous for Bio CCT.

God help me!

Aaargh!

5 days.

5 more days of school to the next weekend. I can barely wait.

Actually, I can't wait for this 5 days to be over. In chinese, I 恨不得明天是星期五.

Sigh.

I've got the three most stressful CCTs and the most stressful humanities test. Chem, Bio, A-math, and Geography.

Damn.

Plus muster parade. I'm in for a heck of a week.

Surprisingly, I found cross-country to be quite easy. 4.8 kilometres, wasn't too hard at all. Looks like my fears were unfounded. Anyway, tomorrow's maths CCT. And I'm nervous. And stressed.

At least I had a good time in church today.

I really need God's help this week.

Cross Country

Okay. Tomorrow is cross-country. And I seriously don't feel like going. I mean, I'm not a person who enjoys jogging, unlike some other people. I don't go for AQ, and I only exercise by playing sports, or occasionally, by doing a bit of sets here and there. So, why?

They say must have some kind of bonding spirit. I also don't get what bonding spirit will happen if we run together. I'll just have to treat is as a chance to exercise!

Not to mention the March Camp is 4 days 3 nights, just because we have to go to some kind of 'high elements' camp. Which, in my opinion, is a horrible idea! Waste my time, don't we all do high elements in OBS?

Seriously, I wish there was a G12 conference to look forward to. Sanctification Week's a long long time away.

At least I can go church. Some people can't even do that.

Tomorrow's going to be a LONG day.

Sigh.

Still have so much revision to do.

Ridiculous, when everyone has finished their CTs, I still have three more.

=(

Psalms 4:7!

Claim! =D

Weekend's coming

Amazingly, I've managed to get through this week. I haven't been very faithful in fasting from TV shows, but I promise from now on, I won't watch TV shows until this forty days is over! Though I have been skipping lunch....

Anyway. I'm still feeling guilty now. Got to make better on what I do. I shouldn't be a hypocrite. Ah well. There's cross country on Saturday, and I seriously don't feel like going. But I have to. So I've got to chiong all my homework tomorrow afternoon so I can make it for the baptism service. I'm feeling discouraged again. So much things piling up. It's a very good thing that I've managed to do most of my homework, but I think that there might be quite a large amount of homework to be given out tomorrow. I'm really quite worried.

Probably can't go.

Sian!

Everyone seems to busy for church things nowadays, including me. Lucky thing I can always go on Sunday...

Thank God.

I'm going to be very busy over the next two days. God give me strength!

Looking forward to the period after Chinese Tuition on saturday! =D

Forty Days

Okay, Pastor just declared us to fast forty days, one meal, and also from something that we love most, and to take that time for us to get closer to God. I'm kinda excited actually, and anyway, God really touched me today in church. When pastor asked us to go down to experience God's love, I was hit by Him. Literally. Halfway down to the front, I began to tear. Once I reached and knelt, I started crying. Not like, tearing. But crying. Not wailing la, but seriously, my shirt was kinda wet when I stopped. Everyone was tearing up, (at least), and drowning, (at least me) in the Holy Spirit. I experienced God's love and the Holy Spirit's powerful presence in a way that I've never done before. So, its been a really fruitful Sunday.

So for this next forty days, we've to set aside one hour just for God. In that our, we have to pray, read the bible, or worship God. At this point of time last year, I'd probably have thought, 'crazy' and forgot about the whole thing. But know, I'm quite determined to see it through. Get God to help me of course. Anyway, this whole impromptu fasting thing also means the instead of the equipping classes on Sunday, we get to hold cell group. I'm not complaining, of course.

The whole climax of this church-wide thing is Good Friday. That still seems quite a long way of.

Anyway, CCTs are here! Got to go study.

Anyway, something important I took away from Sol today. Don't use your school work as an excuse not the read the Word of God, not to go to church. Put God first, and He won't shortchange us.

=D God bless all of you for the upcoming week.

Crazy?

I'm kinda crazy. I finished doing all the pertinent homework, but I haven't done much for all my projects. I'm feeling quite guilty now, but I can't help it. Too busy watching shows. Sigh. It's as bad as anime.

Anyway, tomorrow's muster parade. They must certainly think we have nothing better to do. Not to mention that this year's March camp is going to be 4 days 3 nights! What about holidays? What about rest? What about homework? Sigh.

Going to continue watching.

=D

About the only good thing today.

School is really boring. Can't keep my eyes open unless I take notes or the lesson is interesting.

Which means I don't really listen during Chinese, Geog or SS.

Gotta buck up!

Back to work

That was certainly a very refreshing break. But I have to go back to work. And today's sermon was especially meaningful. It had three points. Two of which are beautifully captured in the song 'Devotion' by Hillsong United. It kinda struck me in the sermon. Anyway, I'm really inspired by this sermon to be a better person and to make Jesus the Lord of my entire life!

In terms of CNY, I've definitely gained weight. Damn. =(((

Ah well. And we did have a good time playing taboo, guitar, and whatnot at our houses.

Anyway. Yeah.

=D Guitar rocks. Feeling random. At the moment, that is.

Got to go sleep. Nitez to everyone. And Bio CCT is around the corner

*Gasps*

God, give me strength!

Well...

I managed to surprise myself. I did a math question that stumped me without seeking help. That may not be an achievement for you, but it certainly is for me. =D Gave me quite an amount of encouragement. =D

Thank God. It's a timely boost.

Going visiting with my cell tomorrow. Going to sleep now.

Nitez! And have good weekend.

If you ever read this. Not many people will.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Happy Lunar New Year, and not just to the Chinese out there!

Anyway, I've managed to finish my homework. But definitely not my projects and revision. I've got to study for the damned Bio test coming up. And all those projects...

Ah well. Gotta work hard on Sunday.

Well, I'm sure I'm gonna get fat soon at the rate I'm going. Eating so much Chinese New Year goodies, steamboat food and so on and so forth. So I'm going to resolve to not eat so much. Don't want to get so fat over this CNY season.

Oh well. I'm going to guitar now.

Because there really isn't anything to say, I'll save my words for sometime else.

Disappointment

I'm disappointed at my self. All I managed to do today was to finish my SS homework. And some math. Otherwise, all I did was to read fanfic. Oh well. Gotta work much harder tomorrow. Focus...

Somehow, I'm not looking forward to CNY anymore. All I want to do is to sleep. And forget about homework and all my troubles.

I'm so tired! Could fall asleep right now.

Sigh.

Ah well....

Homework

They find that giving homework over the CNY break is very fun. I certainly don't think so. Especially when I know that I definitely won't have any time to do homework over the CNY break. So I've to chiong everything now. Darn it. Why can't they ever think of it that way. Sure, most people stay at home and play com, but I don't. Why?

Got to go do homework, so I don't have time for a long post. But I'm just thinking. Should the fact that I'm from some stupid school affect the things I do and the people I talk to? Anyway. I don't think it should matter a single bit.

Gotta concentrate.

Sigh.

Tears.

Its been a long time since I've cried in church. But today somehow the presence of God was so strong and I teared up. Worship wasn't anything special until the last song. Made taking the Lord's Supper after that extra good. =D Felt God's presence so strongly today! Well, that great. Gotta thank God for all that...

While the sermon wasn't anything special today, the altar call was. Felt as if it was tailor-made for me. So I went down, with Craig and Daniel following. Anyway. I got some things off my mind, heart and soul. Overall, a great Sunday. Great fellowship. But we seem to be kinda violent today. Everyone. Wonder why. Strange I guess... It's not my fault... ._. Honest. Maybe it is. Childish people...

Okay. It's two days of school, but there's quite of bit of assignments and projects and test coming up after Chinese New Year. So as to enjoy the CNY break, I'm going to have work extra hard during the next two days so I can enjoy the break. God give me the strength and efficiency.


Ah well. There's school tomorrow. And BB. I can't help but wish there wasn't BB so I could chiong home and finish up more homework and stuff.

Wishes?

Psalm 17:3
Psalm 32:8

Anyway.

Incoming...

Okay. At least we didn't screw up big time like some other groups from other schools. But still, I feel, as probably was the point of today's whole activity that we have much to improve on for our proposal. So we'll have to work on it. And I'm feeling the stress cos I've to complete all my CNY homework before the CNY break, cos I know I won't have time to do it. I plan to enjoy myself! =D

So yeah. Tomorrow is Sunday! Finally. Anyway, today Chinese tuition helped me revise for my test, so that is part of my work done. And I've got almost all tests except chemistry coming up over the next next and next x3 weeks. Stress.

Darn.

Where am I gonna find the time to guitar?

Ah well.

When there's a will, there's a way I guess.

Psalm 4:7, Psalm 17:3

=D

Friday! =D

It's friday! And I don't have math tuition today, so I can focus on completing all my homework and getting read for tomorrow's MPP presentation...

Today my guitaring is worse than ever. Can't even play some easy songs properly. Just frustrated and stressed over MPP. I'll be glad when the selection's over. At least I can look forward to Sunday, and of course, the CNY break coming up. But after the CNY break, I've got tons of stuff to do, homework, projects, and exams coming up.

Even this weekend. When i get back from MOE tomorrow, I gotta choing some revision. Sigh.

Sunday, come on!