Staff Training

Lots of homework. And a rather draggy hike recce, which we were quite inefficient. However, going to bryce's house to play basketball was good. Not to mention the hoop at his house was quite nice. =D I made 50-60% of field shots outside the key, with 100% percent of shots all landing on the rim. Quite an achievement for me.

However, I'm still unable to kick my bad habits! Like biting my fingers, saying vulgarities, etc. Which really is frustrating, especially when I have no one but myself to blame... =(

Anyway. I've got to get back to my work. Slack too much already.

Torn

I'm so super distracted, and I have so many commitments to think about.

Its clearly very frustrating. I feel even worse when I forget something or leave something out. I feel worst when I try to amuse myself, but instead feel guilty that I haven't done my work.

And work makes me feel horrible. I don't know how I've come to like doing math, but hate doing writing. Its so weird. Writing the zhuantizuoye was a torture, because the subject is SO dry.

Not to mention I feel guilty when I intrude on other people to talk. Like Craig. He gets irritated when i talk to him too much. And then when i talk to others, I'm scared I'll push them away too. I dunno. Its probably my insecurity talking, but I wonder all the same.

I think I better get back to my work. I've wasted enough time slacking as it is.

Sleep

I need sleep. Or I'll fall ill.

Plus, its so super hard to keep awake in Chinese. The content isn't boring, and I can understand the teacher, but I just find it SO hard to keep my eyes open.

Hope my ring finger heals soon. Injured it during basketball today. It wasn't even a match. I was just grabbing one of the balls available. How stupid of me... Its my shooting hand. =(

Anyway. Good nite.

Focus

I'm ashamed to say that I wasted 4 hours today.

I have to focus.

Remind me if you think I'm not focusing. O.o

Thanks.

It's Over!

Spring cleaning is over, for now. Thank goodness.

I've been cleaning for two days straight, such that my fingers are really quite sore. I've never ever done so much housework in my life.

Still, I'm rather proud of myself. When I see my nice handiwork (nice by my standards), I feel really quite happy. Of course, barring the fact that I don't normally take notice of the stuff I clean... At least my parents appreciate it.

And that's the second cockroach nymph I've killed today. I'm beginning to think that an egg hatched somewhere.

Looking forward to the cell lunch tomorrow. =)

Frustrated

I just don't understand.

I mean, if you've absolutely nothing for me to do at home, then why can't I go out? As long as I've fulfilled all my obligations and stuff, and as long as there isn't a family gathering. If you're just going to do homework with my brothers, would that mean I still have to stay home?

It's really frustrating.

Cramming up

My schedule's cramming up pretty fast. I've really got to be more disciplined so I don't fall behind in any part of my school life. I've got lots to be grateful for, which is that I'm not THAT heavily committed in stuff like Talentime/Chingay etc.

I really can't wait for this week is over. Because that means its Chinese New Year! And a nice break. However, I bet I'll still be really busy. -.-