Torn

I'm so super distracted, and I have so many commitments to think about.

Its clearly very frustrating. I feel even worse when I forget something or leave something out. I feel worst when I try to amuse myself, but instead feel guilty that I haven't done my work.

And work makes me feel horrible. I don't know how I've come to like doing math, but hate doing writing. Its so weird. Writing the zhuantizuoye was a torture, because the subject is SO dry.

Not to mention I feel guilty when I intrude on other people to talk. Like Craig. He gets irritated when i talk to him too much. And then when i talk to others, I'm scared I'll push them away too. I dunno. Its probably my insecurity talking, but I wonder all the same.

I think I better get back to my work. I've wasted enough time slacking as it is.