Rediscover

Talking to old friends still has its fun and it interesting bits.

Refreshing, and encouraging, to talk with people that you can trust. =)

Ah well. Not too bad today.

I don't feel like going school tomorrow.

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Disappointed.

I'm really disappointed in myself. I keep telling myself that I'll change, but my resolve never really lasts that long. So I end up each day feeling that I'm a great failure.

I need to buck up. I hate hormonal imbalances as well. Immature thoughts are irritating. =(

Right now, I'm not quite busy, but I still managed to screw up several of my tests. Pathetic.

Most of all, I just can't seem to be less self-centered and more attuned to others. I keep saying the wrong things, or not putting what I want to say in the correct manner.

Sad life.

But I must still be thankful. It could be a hell lot worse. Thanks for the patience.

March Camp, Class Gathering, and my epic phail at revision

March Camp, to put it simply, was nothing out of the ordinary. We did almost everything by the book, apart from a few new initiatives. We're just glad the guys did enjoy it, and did learn something from it. I myself had several takeaways. We ended the camp on a high, which was horribly destroyed by an extremely unfortunate event. Yeah. Don't even want to THINK about that. But after the camp, I had the energy to play basketball for several hours, and then to eat lunch. Then never sleep until 2am. Think my brain had been kinda fried, that's why so weird, not functioning properly.

Woke up at 12pm the next day, and left for class party. Notice here that i haven't done much work apart from RInspire. Which really, really sucks. Anyway, the party rocked, played mahjong/bridge for about 6-7 hours, had a good pizza dinner, watched some SUPER funny games on the Wii, and also some cool stuff on the ps3. Then I wasted my time waiting for kuss and shao to complete GOW 2 campaign. Which was retarded. But the good point about waiting is that I got my best score ever against Shao. I lost 25-16 in a normal slayer match. Which for me is a great achievement. And then lost 25-23 in a three player match. Which is also good for me. But well. Then left for home.

The point is, without enough sleep, I have been falling asleep so often that I HAVEN'T DONE ANY WORK YET! Fail. Yeah, really fail. Math is giving me many problems, so now I'm off for more work. The highlight of the party was still the mahjong. And that slayer match. And laughing like crazy. Ah well, glad I had fun, at least =)

Pressure. Eek,

G12 conference is really great. But March Holidays is extremely packed. I really want to have some fun with my friends during the week, but its looking more and more unlikely. What with lots of homework, BB Camp, RInspire, and three tests in week 1.

I'll have to see how. With God's grace, I'll make it.

Anyway, put on Christ's DNA, die to your old self, and come to the cross daily.

Off to sleep now.

Staff Training

Lots of homework. And a rather draggy hike recce, which we were quite inefficient. However, going to bryce's house to play basketball was good. Not to mention the hoop at his house was quite nice. =D I made 50-60% of field shots outside the key, with 100% percent of shots all landing on the rim. Quite an achievement for me.

However, I'm still unable to kick my bad habits! Like biting my fingers, saying vulgarities, etc. Which really is frustrating, especially when I have no one but myself to blame... =(

Anyway. I've got to get back to my work. Slack too much already.

Torn

I'm so super distracted, and I have so many commitments to think about.

Its clearly very frustrating. I feel even worse when I forget something or leave something out. I feel worst when I try to amuse myself, but instead feel guilty that I haven't done my work.

And work makes me feel horrible. I don't know how I've come to like doing math, but hate doing writing. Its so weird. Writing the zhuantizuoye was a torture, because the subject is SO dry.

Not to mention I feel guilty when I intrude on other people to talk. Like Craig. He gets irritated when i talk to him too much. And then when i talk to others, I'm scared I'll push them away too. I dunno. Its probably my insecurity talking, but I wonder all the same.

I think I better get back to my work. I've wasted enough time slacking as it is.

Sleep

I need sleep. Or I'll fall ill.

Plus, its so super hard to keep awake in Chinese. The content isn't boring, and I can understand the teacher, but I just find it SO hard to keep my eyes open.

Hope my ring finger heals soon. Injured it during basketball today. It wasn't even a match. I was just grabbing one of the balls available. How stupid of me... Its my shooting hand. =(

Anyway. Good nite.